After the brief explanation of Human Being class, I thought about the characteristic that only human has. When I was in Korea, I watched a film ‘Quest for fire’ by Jean-Jacques Annaud in university. In that movie, there was no voice, It was just all about the primitive human being. And the movie describes essential characteristic that only human has like smile and sympathy. The memory of that movie reminds me that the expression of feeling and emotion is distictive quality of human. And I wondered why we cry and feel depressed. And I want to find artists who expressed their deep sorrow through their works. Firstly I researched a book regarding crying.
Crying is not only associated with an alteration of facial expression accompanying tears, but involves the respiratory muscles, with brief cycles of expiration and inspiration, changes in the tension of the vocal cords, and an outplay of the autonomic nervous system. Some have suggested that there is a crying 'centre' in the brain, and one approach to understanding brain-behaviour relationships is through the study of neurological diseases. In the 1920s the neurologist Samuel Kinnier Wilson examined extensive clinical material in patients with pathological laughing and crying, and reviewed the literature on putative centres of emotion, although he failed to identify one himself.
Nietzsche's opinion about Tregedy
Nietzsche's theory of Tragedy contains a fusion of Apollonian beauty with Dionysian energy and sadness, with Dionysian wisdom penetrating through Apollonian artefacts. He laments the weakening of Dionysian creative energy in art, as over time Apollonian form and order have constricted its breath and breadth. With this burden, Tragedy, that is, true Tragedy for Nietzsche, disappeared from the stage.
'While in all productive people instinct is the power of creativity and affirmation, in Socrates instinct is the power of critic, consciousness the creator-a monstrosity per defectum!'
I’ve always thought that human is emotional animal like ancient Greek sophist Socrates said. Therefore we feel depressed sometimes. And I am very emotional and sensitive person so I sometimes suffer from depression. Especially these day, I was in a very difficult situation. I was in the middle of huge depression. I felt so sad everynight, and I had a strong feeling to express this feeling through my work. I also think that expressing their own feeling and desire to express something as an art are what only human can do. I wanted to make a sculpture or object to express the deep depression and the sadness.
At first I researched some books regarding why human cry physically and emotionally. And I researched Edvard Munch whose work affected a lot in this project. Munch had very sad childhood memories and trauma of losing his families when he was very young. That memory gave him the inspiration of painting in his own perspective drawing style and colours. Everytime I look at his painting I can feel the deep sadness. I think His works reflect himself very well.
After researching, I found the inspiring photo at library. It looked like heart or lung. That photo attracted me so strongly and I can’t stop thinking of that image. I imagined that when I feel depressed, I feel like I’m in the very small room covered by blue walls. And it feels like I’m sinking into the bottom of deep blue water. Meanwhile, my heart gets dyed blue in my imaginal feeling. And it’s like my heart is so wet that if I squeeze it, the blue water might flow out. My work started from that imagination.
I wanted to make a fluffy heart with cotton wool and started making pieces of fluffy form. I made a various shape of fluffy form by cutting a cloth, sewing and filling the cotton in it. With those things I experimented different type of model. Then I put them like the image that I found in library and colouring it with blue acrylic. And I put some fabrics that have different textures. I wanted my object to be tangible like even if I close my eyes, I can feel this object through touching and grasping. Because I think the emotion is so natural thing that we can feel it even if we do nothing. Like I felt sorrow seeing the Munch’s painting, I wanted some people can feel the similar emotion seeing and touching my object.